Is it wrong to lust after horses?

My real name is charlie m.and I have a good amount of money.am good looking,still,and I don't get turned by girls anymore.When my brother frank took me to the kentucky derby,before I bought a soda,i watched the lineupmand stangely I got hard.Now I obsess over horses.This cost me my friendships and cost me my relationship with my man doug,i was gay all my life,and now without joking,im letting you know,i want a horse real bad,and hope it's not wrong.and yes,its because of the size of equipment that a male horse has,and I want it.